24
Jun
Leaving Isn’t Just Walking Away. It’s Resurrection.
A soul reclamation message for celebrants healing from love that turned to illusion.
By Dillyn Hoffman
At Entheogenic Church and Shamanic Ananda, we honor the initiatory path of the heart—not just when it’s full of joy and sacred union, but especially when it’s bruised, betrayed, or broken. Because these are the moments when your soul speaks the loudest.
To those quietly suffering in a relationship that has eroded your spirit…
This isn’t just about a breakup.
It’s a resurrection.
It’s the moment your soul, buried under years of gaslighting and self-doubt, begins to breathe again.
It’s the return to your true self—not the one you had to become to be tolerated, but the one that existed long before the manipulation, the guilt loops, and the shame-based attachment.
🔥 You’re Not Just Grieving the Relationship
You’re grieving the you who once believed.
The version of you who showed up wide-eyed, loving, radiant…
And slowly started dimming their light to survive.
You’re mourning the dream they sold you, the potential they dangled just out of reach—the fantasy that kept you invested while draining you dry.
They didn’t love you.
They loved your light… until it threatened their shadow.
What hurts most isn’t just the betrayal.
It’s how far you strayed from yourself to be chosen by someone who never chose you in the first place.
And that pain? That ache? That hollow void in the chest?
It’s not your longing for them.
It’s your soul reclaiming the territory they once occupied.
This is what resurrection feels like.
Some Relationships Don’t End with Closure. They End with Awakening.
It’s not about “closure.” That’s a myth when you’ve been entangled with a narcissist or someone trapped in the Dark Triad of manipulation, ego, and control.
Some bonds end because the lesson is done.
And what a brutal, holy lesson it is.
They taught you how to:
•Shrink to be safe.
•Question your own inner knowing.
•Mistake emotional whiplash for deep passion.
•Confuse survival with devotion.
You chased crumbs and called it connection.
You silenced your intuition and called it compromise.
You walked on eggshells and called it “keeping the peace.”
But your body never lied.
Your soul always knew.
Through the language of trauma and tension, your spirit whispered,
“This is not love. This is captivity.”
🧬 They Want Devotion, Not Depth
A narcissist, or anyone in the grip of the Dark Triad—narcissism, Machiavellianism, and psychopathy—is not seeking a partner.
They seek a witness.
A mirror to validate their illusion.
A stage on which they can perform their identity… while draining yours.
Your authenticity was a threat.
Your boundaries, an insult.
Your voice, a disruption to the carefully controlled illusion they curated.
They didn’t want your love.
They wanted your fuel.
And yet, you stayed.
Why?
Because hope is the most seductive weapon in the hands of a manipulator.
“If I love harder…
If I wait longer…
If I forgive one more time…
They’ll finally love me back.”
But they won’t.
Not because you’re unlovable.
But because they are disconnected from the source of true love—and they fear anyone who carries it.
You were too true for someone who lives in performance.
Too whole for someone who feeds on fragments.
🌱 The Truth About Healing
If you’re healing now, walking away, or even just waking up to what’s real—know this:
•Your compassion wasn’t a weakness. It was a sacred gift that was misused.
•Your loyalty wasn’t foolish—it was holy. And now, it’s returning to its rightful altar: yourself.
•Your emptiness isn’t longing for them—it’s the void clearing for your soul’s rebirth.
•Your resilience isn’t proof you should’ve stayed—it’s a testimony that you are now ready for something far more divine.
What you’ve endured is not just heartbreak.
It’s an initiatory passage—one we’ve walked with many celebrants who come through the gates of Entheogenic Church seeking not just relief, but reclamation.
You are not too broken.
You are breaking free.
🕊 The Sacred Invitation
Every ceremony, every sacred circle, every breathwork, every prayer at Shamanic Ananda is a space where this kind of soul retrieval happens.
We don’t just guide people through external healing.
We walk them back to their internal sovereignty.
When you choose your sanity over their potential—
Your peace over their promise—
Your sacred path over their performance—
You are saying yes to the Divine.
You are becoming a vessel again.
🎨 Final Words for the One Rebuilding
You were never too much.
You were never too sensitive, too emotional, too intense.
You were simply too awake for someone committed to sleepwalking.
So let them go.
Let them perform for someone else.
Let your silence echo as your truth.
Let your healing become the standing ovation they never earned.
Because you?
